Half Way Around the Sun

I have been half way around the sun as a mother –

it happened as quickly as they said it would.

Just as my belly stretched around his body,

my heart has stretched and soared on love.photo(39)I have caught glimpses of a kinder and more patient version of myself

who has tender smiles left to give at 2 in the morning and again at 4,

who wills strength into aching arms when swaying and singing are what my sleepy son needs.

I have cried tears of joy, frustration, and exhaustion,

faced fears of failure with faith:

that God who created the universe didn’t make his first mistake by giving this child to me.

DSC07649I have watched the transformation of my loved ones, blooming impossibly more beautiful,

as parents into grandparents, sister into auntie, husband into father.

DSC07458Every drop of love that has ever fallen into my cup is magnified and purified as I see it poured out over this child,

acceptance and tenderness and celebration all received

without my personal filter of self-doubt and criticism.

I am learning to embrace moments, resist task lists and the nagging voice that says I should do it all,

His cry for comfort is my rescue from working to be enough.DSC07656

There are worse things in life than messy kitchens at bed time.

Dishes can wait when sometimes a sleepy brain cannot.

http://img2-2.timeinc.net/ew/i/2012/07/24/Moo-Baa-Lalala.jpgI have memorized board books, nursery rhymes, and the feel of his weight in my arms.

DSC07654My heart overflows and my cup runneth over,

and I know it’s just the start.

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Susan 10-08-2013, 13:13

So beautifully articulated! My eyes are wet and my heart too is overflowing – because of my baby, and so much beauty of life & love. The photos make it all the clearer. This touches the heart! Thank-you.

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alyssa 10-08-2013, 15:40

I am so happy to have this outlet to share my joy when it wells up on days like these ๐Ÿ™‚

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Linda Boag Moores 10-08-2013, 16:18

Beautiful Alyssa. When I read what you write it brings me the most peaceful feeling.

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Aunt Rita 12-08-2013, 16:37

Beautiful. And I love that book. “No, no you say that isn’t right.”

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alyssa 12-08-2013, 18:33

The pigs say OINK all day and night! ๐Ÿ™‚

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My 1 Year Old Walks! ยป Moving With God 10-02-2014, 07:20

[…] we are celebrating our trip around the sun together, please enjoy this little video of some of his first steps! Yes, he’s this cute […]

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